ANOTHER VAMPIRE......after Kipling

 clouds

 falling

The Change

ANOTHER VAMPIRE

after Kipling

Broken I was and beyond repair

(I never could understand.)

I’d stand in the rain and think it was fair

( I knew I was wrong but I just couldn’t care)

But still I stood and still I stared

(I never could understand.)

I stepped on my dreams, or so it seems

I tried to keep them all clear

But there was never a dawn that could draw me on

( Now I can feel and I tried hard to feel)

And I struggled, but named it fear.

I was loved or thought may be I might

(I never could understand)

Still I leaned into the fight

Broke my spirit to capture the light

(And the light it was never that bright)

(I never could understand.)

Oh the things I would do to make this seem true

Were never enough, much too bland

And now I can feel, As I am able to feel

(But please understand that I barely can feel)

Yet it still seemed all much too grand.

I’m broken apart, like it matters at all

(I never could understand.)

And I’ve tripped on the verge and I crawl

(But it doesn’t seem real, just small)

Still I grew, but was broken, was never so tall

(I never could understand.)

And now in the twilight I beg for a bright light

And it cuts like a curse from a height.

And I’ll never know how it caught me and so

(My soul has gone from me, faith, I never will know)

And I never will understand.