



DINNER TIME
No one has used this road since
The end of World War II when
Rain came down for eight days
Drowning the wood, abandoning
Even the golden voices of the animals
That once lived here.
It wasn’t that it was dark,
Thoughts could easily become more dense
Than the crippled light that insisted
On being there despite having been foreclosed
And locked with thorns that seemed
Sharper than memory when unfolded.
But we came here anyway, if only
To be troubled by the fact that the road
Refused to go away or stop leading
To anywhere; a cut where, looking ahead
One could see the trees break and an open
Meadow lean ahead all the way to the lake
Shore. In the summer there were fireflies
That received the place like a memory.
Summer is gone, the war is gone
And we, for want of learning something special,
Something to place at the service of trying
To understand all the histories all over again,
Cause us to falter a bit and look
Cautiously about us to see if we can
Explain anything about this loss or the place
Itself that might leave us feeling
Intrusive about our need to be here.
The placid shadows, the mothers calling
Their sons home to dinner across the fields.
FOR d.a. levy
Oh little duck squat in your beer.
Such raggedy mornings lope up the hill
and empty their pockets into my room.
I remember April on the coast of France
Wind coming in over the tops of waves
and pushing against the shore.
And now this soft light moves
in and out the door wearing the sun
like it was a gunbelt, aiming the mind
of the child at the stars and firing.
ANIOLY KARTY DO GRY
(Angels Playing Cards)
There is too much light
In the room for anything irreconcilable
To happen. It will be recorded
Inside the caves, on the battlefields,
Across the purple moors and darker prairies.
The cards are flipped down upon
The table, voiceless like generations
Forced to speak to each other
Through the dark
Doors of time.
For each card is unforgiven, unforeseen
With traces in its skin of the stillness
Before birth, The Ascent of Mount Carmel,
The Olympian crucifix with its living
Christus smelling like wars and collapse
Through fire of great empires.
There is no betting at all. All blows away,
Just the open-mouthed angels constantly
Surprised at how the cards fall
As if by chance.
TOMALES
Came out last night.
It was snowing on the moon.
Pretty hard too.
Gusting about
like a room full of laundry
looks when you’ve lost something
in it.
Down here, I’m drinking splits,
looking at the road map.
Everything here is relative.
The moonlight on the beer foam,
bubbles rising like the stars.
The storms ease on the moon.
I ease out the back door
to look at the night again. Huge
drifts of snow slide through
the sky. I am amazed by
the intensity of the storm.
The moon moves across the back
of a fog bank.
Fingers of wind make noises,
almost music, across the tops
of the beer bottles.
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I WOULD MAKE NOISES DEEP
in my throat that sounded
so unlike anything I knew
that I would scare myself.
I became ceremony in sound.
A whirl of phlegm, crackling
and sputtering up from the
rooms I guard against time
and her dancing princesses.
A quaking, as if a bear suddenly
came into the room on hind
legs and performed the crushing
of an arm as if it were a
dance and she the music.
Now, autumn pushes clouds
ahead of itself with a yard
full of leaves, I hear these
same sounds again issue
from their scraping across
the drive and think them
a familiar music, something
treasured, like a Nocturne by
Chopin remembered by the fingers
long after the mind has forgotten
the specificity of the notes and rests.
It is a rustling of lace
in a room draped with silences.
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LA NOCHE
It bothers me
that the night
is outside minding its own
business while I am
in my room half
expecting you to appear
in the bed next to me.
You, with your brow arched,
surprised to have been
shipped across the night
like so much luggage;
the white roses of sleep
still in your skin.
I would be as surprised.
Hello? It would be like
saying hello to
myself on this late August
night, where the voices
of dogs are so small
in the distance, that my breath
seems huge. no, hellos
would never do.
The dark just outside the
window waits for me to put
the lights out. It has ways
of getting to me, of opening
the dreams like oranges
and spilling these thoughts
of you all around me,
before I can catch a glimpse
of you shuttling across the
night air, not alarmed
at all by this thinking
it is just the changing
of the season that causes
these things. not alarmed
by the love of it. not at all.
Knowing you will wake up
far away from this room,
the night being busy
with so much else. with
traffic and dogs and things
of its fabric as to
make such journeys a
matter of reaching to the end
of the bed and pulling
another blanket up above
your shoulders.
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SPRING BROKEN
Really now, it had nowhere to go
Except toward Summer. Wasn’t
that a given? Wasn’t Spring given
Specific instructions about the dawn,
The new leaves, those choruses of frogs?
Still there it is sulking in the first
Week of April like a schoolgirl
Upset over something she can’t have
But doesn’t really want anyway.
High in the Sierra a late season
Snowstorm has turned the world white
Again. There are no flowers, no buds,
No rivulets babbling and gurgling.
There is so much snow the dawn seems
Late, There is a smile on the lips
Of Spring, if only for a day or too.
Perhaps that will be enough.
We will go to the market and buy
Vegetable seeds , try to recall the
Heat after Easter creeping back, getting stronger.
PRESERVING WORDS
We’ve had some of them stored for years in that wooden pantry just below the cellar stair, where mom kept the plums and tomatoes and pickles. They were the words. The special ones we didn’t use everyday. When guests came we would open some and they would spark conversation. After dinner with a slice of pie and slice of cheese those deeper ones that stuck to the sides of the jars would be scraped carefully and served up. The ones that mattered, like blood and its engines, famine and tumult. They are gone now. So much time has passed since childhood that even the pantry is difficult to remember, let alone those words. Still they pulse through our bodies. Unlike cells they are not replaced every seven years by a new one. We hold them in our hearts and mouths and call to one another across time as if it were a fence between yards.
IT’S ALWAYS THE WONDER
It’s always the wonder, the mist
Above to morning river, the shimmering
Horses seen through Summer heat on the desert,
The changing of the seasons with their gifts,
The way dreams crowd themselves in our waking.
Waiting along the sides of the road we see
Butterflies of a most remarkable color rise
From a single bush full of the jewels wisdom
Creates when it walks among us with a human
Voice and there, such a lovely woman waves
Toward our rag tag bunch of wanderers and
Calls to us to come for lunch, right about now.
Brooms that stand straight up, almost a forest,
They nod their corn straw heads. A waterfall
Grows from the heart of the forest planting
Rainbows on your skin. We turn colors,
Surprising one another constantly.
I guess I must have looked surprised when
I got here. I didn’t expect it would be like this. It’s
Always wonder that carries the meanings in its
Coat pockets, talks across the whole country,
Allows us to return time and time again to continue
Through tears and heartbreak, murder and confusion.
I’m all for it, will get up and walk right up to it.
I’ll take all you’ve got, angels in the windows laughing.