Three trees, the only landscape. I couldn’t see past the surface Of the water. There was a kind Of sweet smell coming from my flesh. The light was shattered by the afternoon. It lay all criss-crossed on the floor, Smashed into the door of my room and banked Off the wrought iron bedstead.
Car skids around the corner, takes out About three feet of fence, backs up, guns The motor so hard it blows the muffler and Disappears in a blast of taillights. Perhaps It is the Winter light that makes the houses Look so old and tired and hurt? They try To fill themselves with the holidays, try to Bend poor Jesus into “everything Feeling so good.” Perhaps it is just that avenue Of trees, near the water, pretending to be The eternal now?
When I look close at the tears in the fabric, They seem to have been bitten through. It Seems as if the fabric is made of so many pairs of Old denims, plaid shirts, socks, jackets and Navy coats with rainbow cuffs, used to grab Big hunks of music out of time and twist them Around guitar strings. Sometimes it is a moment Of wind, the space before the comma, the sound of one’s Own footsteps reaching the ears. Look, over here, Near the end of this creek, where it joins the lake, The water seems to be making a shape, looks like An angel. Its wings tricking against some twigs Caught in the flood. They seem to move, then do.
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We sat on the edge of the blue Inlet and listened for the question To become complete. A slight Drift of smoke carried the scent Of the cities through our clothing, Peeling layer after layer of feeling From us as if it were the heart, Caught in its room of ribs and breathing, Unable to understand hands, the movements Of high mountain goats among the pinnacles of forgetting.
Sounds poured forth from us, Continents of them, ripe and with A million yellow mouths, all wanting Something other than words could Give, caught in melody and stripped Before our eyes of the darling vestments So beloved by men everywhere; Truth, Knowing, the Sublime, Instinct. “All lost, lost,” the captain said, unable To recognize the land any longer.
We have no maps for things like this. We are forever thinking we know What will happen. We are forever Calling, searching for echoes, the voice of angels, The smiles of children blessed with tenderness, Founded in waking up to see the sun Slipping between the window blinds, Not a dream at all, rather a way of knowing. We embrace them and weep endlessly. We name ourselves rain forest.